I think im ready to take the unbroken wave on but Im such a wuss I cant take the tinyest of drops (and I do mean tiny). This little voice in my head just keeps telling me Im not going to make it so I bail out! I have common sense and know I should ignore this but I cant!
I went indoor rock climbing on friday and got so scared sometimes cos I ran out of strength that I wanted to quit but they made me keep going and I eventually did it(yey for me
)....but I always knew the saftey harness was there and nothing bad could really happen - a bit different to surfing.
The thing is, I cant build up confidence until I take the drop but I cant seem to bring myself to taking that drop - whenever I have, Ive pearled (I seem to have lost my sense of positioning also)- nothing really bad has happened but its been a little scary at times.
So now I cannot bring myself to do it and I paddle slow and dont catch the wave- its like a mental block
and I just look at the white water and want to go splash about in there again - Im fearful of being out of my depth and too far away from the shore and I hate the thought of other people thinking they have to babysit me in the water - should I give up surfing? its not like I have a massive amount of time to dedicate to it even though I usually enjoy it I cant see myself progressing past this point!
Ive decided to take up swimming and to try and build up my strength so Im a bit more physicly able in the water to try and build my confidence up and practice pop ups but are there any more tips/tricks to get me over this? - I dont want to look at the waves with a knot of fear in my stomach any more.
Usually, if someone tells me I cant do something (even myself) I kinda say 'wanna bet?!?! watch this
!!!' and then I go do it
, which always fills me with a sense of massive pride and self confidence, but it seems in surfing, I have met my match! and I dont like it. That sodding ocean! it can be pretty intimidating.
Im sorry for rambling and being a drama queen
- Ive kinda treated this post like a shrinks couch, been thinking about it for a while now, I know I think too much but dont try and tell me to stop that - it's just me.